pin them to my heart, lest i forget,
your empty words that filled emptier silences.
with each pulse, the needle recalls
throbbing, through tissue and paper it slices.
i could grow used to this pain,
anything constant is a welcome change
when you rip away all that you had me believe
it's only this hurt that remains,
i'll hold on to it only because it grips back.
should my misconfidence falter,
and should my judgement slip from their hands
i can adapt to a course, however altered
making peace, pieces where i land.
pick me up in pieces
tell me that it's for better
broken heart with shards of glass
reflected sun in stormy weather,
leave me a hammer, a box of nails
and i'll pull myself together.
stiches and a needle
for when i fell head over heels
ice to numb my swollen ego
and to cool my skin that peels
and the chemicals to slow me down
comfort on a mind that reels.
some filler for a cavity etched
deep inside my chest,
these fixes are only temporary
time will heal the rest.
though i need you here to lick my wounds
you could always hurt me best.
rapid rushing water, drowns out the last
of your words
and i'm left to fend for my own sorry self,
just me against the current.
i'll let it carry me out for some time,
just far enough away
that you can't jump in and save me,
and then i'll fight like hell.
the water in my lungs is worth the look on your face.
7 Day's Chaos
your beauty overwhelms me
as i look into your eyes
in, i see all there is to see
i see far beyond the skies.
i know we'll never speak again
but i can't help but feel you now
i'd try to stop, but i cannot abstain
i'd tell you this, if i only knew how
i see you every morning
and you take away the pain
if i could always hear your voice
then i'd never cry again
what i wouldn't give to know you
wherever you may be
what i wouldn't do to hold you
and feel you holding me
where i wouldn't go to see you
any corner of this earth
the top of any mountain
accross the universe
what would you think if you knew
how you aff
hopeless/indifferent
intro
theres a painfull indifference
that i'm feeling inside
my thoughts are unclear
i know i can't hide;
behind a screen
i want to scream;
just push me aside
cos i can't decide
if its starting or ending.
verse one
its late
and i'm baked
and i've got no where to go
if this is what i've always wanted
why am i feelin so low
chorus
take it all away from me
before i hurt myself.
verse two
i don't expect you to understand
to know
what i'm goin through is real
it's beyond human nature to comprehend
the nothingness i feel.
verse three
straining to abstain from everything
i see; i feel
the frustratio
heyyy..well i have the warped tour pics...just needa scan them..wow there are some prime shots here too!
umm yeah i haven't been too well these days, bad stuff i can't controll..i'm getting over it...
check out my sexy new poem... the sides of you do battle 2...it's 50 million times better than the first
i'm going to bed
-kait